so over like the last month everything has gone so weird. and i duno i just dont understand i guess. i remember michelle telling me that she expected me to tell her the truth, so after hearing people complainging behind her back i decided to try tell her, even tho i was being told by others that it would be a waste of time as i could tlak to her for hours and she still wouldnt see. but i guess i was dumb and wanted thigns between everyone to be sorted otu so i tried to talk to her. even though it did nothing to resolve the problem after 2 hrs of trying we discovered that im 'mean' and like to rub things in her face, everything i was saying i was rubbing in her face. uh huh yerp thats in... not. so after another try the next night, and talkin to vicki and ally about it they decided they wanted to sort it out face to face, knew it was a bad idea but i wanted to go along to see if anything i had said had sunk in, and it hadnt, we got to 3rd groin, got in her car we sat in silence for like 10mins and then the first thing she said was 'u had a lot to say earlier 2v' so in my head i visioned me beating the shit out of her, but instead i got up left n went to my car to wait for vicki n ally to finish so i could go home, then vicki came out of the car trying to convince me to go back, no chance!! so vicki went back and then 10mins later vicki came back to the car to try and get me to go, and once again i refused. but then she started to cry and i cant stand seeing my mates cry, so i got up n sat in her car, and proceeded to go to sleep cause i knew there woudl be no apologes coming my way, i mean as if, im below michelle in her books, y should she apologise to me? so i drifted in n out of sleep, and before we left she went 'i dont understand y 2vs here' and u know what i will never forget that, i mean hey she hadnt jsut screamed at me for being a 'liar' and rubbing shit in her face, when it was all true!!!! i said nothing that wasnt true!!! and she asked me for the truth, but hey its just like wat adam says about her 'she says she wants the truth, but she cant handle it' and im starting to think hes right. hell i do think hes right. but wats funny is i think adam is the only one who has seen her in like a month.. maybe ally has? who knows, all i know is until the day she apologises to me i wont. until the day she realises that she abused me for nothing things will remain this way, we wont talk, we wont see each other, we wont do anything. but wat amazes me is that i still keep her 'secrets' that she told me.. like the one about the song 'someday someday' me n steve were in big w the otherday and the song came on and steve started to sing it, n i said 'blah lets go this song has been ruined for me' and he asked by who and i said michelle, so he tried n tried to get it out of me, but i didnt say, i wanted to, god i wanted to, i just wanted to scream it out loud, i wanted her to be hurt, but i didnt i kept quiet, i dont know if i always will, but i did. i guess the good thing about this happening is that i can actually talk to and look at ally without having the stuff michelle put into my head about her. and u knwo wat, allys cool. k well this is where ill end it.

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